The daily log of Andrew D Pilat for Friday, April 09, 2021

big blue 5K

Run

: 5.00 Kilometer(s) : 00:14:43 : 00:04:44.21 /mile : sunny barefoot turf doubles : 0.0

Run

: 6.00 Mile(s) : 00:00:00 : : sunny barefoot turf doubles : 0.0

Daily Note

Went out in 4:38, came back in another 4:38 through the 3200 in 9:16. Felt great, and was on pace to run 14:25. In my mind, this is what I was going to run and I was going to win. Instead something else happened the last 4 laps, and I just completely fizzled out and went from consistent 69's to 72-74s. I never had a negative thought in the race, but after the race it just hit me like a truck. I had never been more confident in myself than I was this week leading up and even during the race itself I thought I was making something magical happen for myself-- The thing that I thought I had been waiting over a year on. And then it got ripped away from me. I did the best that I could, and part of me after the race on the cooldown still was convinced that I could've held that pace for a 5K. I don't know if that was me being realistic with myself and recognizing that it's there, or just in denial This felt like the most important race of my life so far, and the result was just so far removed from what I had envisioned. You could say whatever you want, that it was a PR by a few seconds... or that I raced and competed hard. But at the end of the day the tiniest PR after all I had given in the race, and given up and sacrificed this last year for this was probably one of the worst feelings I think I've ever had after a race. I think I have more to say, but emotionally I'm exhausted. There's only so much I have to give to running and I feel like I've given all that I can to it in this last year. Onto the next, but after tonight I let myself down and having a hard time picking myself up after it

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